I could have wrote that response for you when I read your original post, you are text book trauma induced and getting yourself signed up for more abuse and grooming. Please do some research about these types of traumas and work towards a healthier life path for yourself. This “partner” is not the answer. Nor is a baby at 18.

Sooooo - what’s your home life like? How do your parents treat you? Ever been verbally or physically abused or assaulted? Please don’t get pregnant.

Soooooo. I see why she is reconsidering the relationship and any potential marriage to you …..

I suspect that while you 4 bonded over your preference for “CH” lives that you are overly emphatic and they are going along with you - to a degree. “CF” people can love kids and still not want them. You have a long road ahead if this is how you continue to see life - that does not in fact revolve around you.