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fuck-alia-iacta-est OP t1_ixjpjs6 wrote

It doesn't have to in some ways at least thankfully

I feel you re:MDs, part of my reality is that my dad died five years ago because a doctor "misdiagnosed" a condition which happened to give that doctor a pretext to install an expensive, profitable device in his chest.

There are definitely shitty people who only cause misery. Part of why I'm comfortable with just ignoring them as opposed to pursuing something (both criminal+civil) is the knowledge that even though I could completely blow up their little world there is nothing I or anyone could possibly do to fuck them worse than they fuck themselves. They're miserable now, I could make them marginally more miserable but the cost would be my own happiness. They aren't worth it; on top of that when you make it apparent to a person who loves to say "do you know who I am" that they aren't worth your time or energy pisses them off just a bit more too.

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fuck-alia-iacta-est OP t1_ixjo4pd wrote

That's kind to say and I appreciate the sentiment but for me at least I don't want to let myself off the hook, I'm naturally a very trusting person and if nothing else I'm walking away from this with better perspective on how to treat people based on how they treat me.

Thank you <3

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fuck-alia-iacta-est OP t1_ixjnyx7 wrote

Sofie passed unfortunately (about six months after she threatened to abandon the dogs in the hallway) but she was happy/waddling/wagging her tail until the end; she had a stroke while she was sleeping. Lizzie is still doing great.

I've blocked her family and am allowing limited contact with her because the reality is we have a shared legal responsibility for the apartment through the next several days.

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fuck-alia-iacta-est OP t1_ixjnm3p wrote

It took

  • lying* on her bed screaming that I was hurting her, the neighbors should call the cops, flipping me off, and reminding me "Who do you think they'll believe" while I was several feet away from her
  • switching from throwing plastic gatorade bottles to insulated water bottles

to get me to go from "maybe I can ride out the lease" to "no" - I found and moved into my current place inside of five days

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fuck-alia-iacta-est OP t1_ixjn0bq wrote

I definitely did that at one point, I don't anymore. ESH.

I'm at fault for letting it happen and not pulling the ripcord when (I hate this term)red flags showed, she's at fault for continuing to refuse to be an independent adult, and her parents are at fault for raising her to refuse to be an independent adult.

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fuck-alia-iacta-est OP t1_ixjmafn wrote

I added a warning at the top, I'm sorry that I didn't put it up at first. Frankly, I'm posting this for myself as an add-on to therapy. Maybe I'll do that at some point but I think it's equally as likely I just let it all stay in the past.

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fuck-alia-iacta-est OP t1_ixjie7c wrote

I get that, posting here mostly because it helps me sort through my thoughts. It's a lot to process. At some point maybe I'll make it coherent and come back. Right now this is just an add on to therapy.

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fuck-alia-iacta-est OP t1_ixise4j wrote

Not to say she isn't responsible for what she does but her parents raised her to be this way, they are the root cause of her problems. They abused her/continue to do so and she doesn't seem to understand how to be in a relationship without being abusive.

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fuck-alia-iacta-est OP t1_ixirt6l wrote

>You can’t have your future kids growing up in that world.

Verizon installer said something very similar to me. You know you fucked up when even the FIOS guy sees something is wrong and tries to help.

We broke up in April. In early May she told me she would move out at the beginning of June. That turned out to be a lie. I was going to spend most of the summer at the beach anyway so I figured I would look for an apartment when I stopped being able to spend time there.

I didn't have the perspective to just up and move out, at first I thought/hoped that she would at least get better. That doesn't seem to have worked out as well as I'd hoped, another FU.

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fuck-alia-iacta-est OP t1_ixipkul wrote

Don't want to antagonize her so won't unless it's necessary but have had a lawyer on retainer since March, that will be requested immediately if necessary. She doesn't know where I live now.

Her dad started threatening to have me put on a psychiatric hold because I wanted to call an ambulance for her when she couldn't walk and I stopped accepting that she could be terrible to me while also having me do everything for her.

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