from personal experience i say you are repressing your true feelings. You are stuck in mundane but your heart want to do something else. i suggest break from monotony and do something you truly desire.

i m waiting to save bit for a year or two and then jump

i say do whatever you want, and maybe stop relying on ancient philosophy or internet motivational quotes.

been planning to do this once i got some savings.

you are confusing lazy with pessimists tbh. You can easily find hard working intelligent people with negative view on life.

oddly inspiring

thats just stupid way to say work consistently and maintain discipline. Real world doesn't work with your 1% rule, its often up and down journey with long stretches of no results despite putting efforts.

Also luck will play out and change your life drastically. But working hard is the only variable you control not luck so forget about it.

nope, i am just as bitter and cynical as you are, and i despise sheer ignorance, greed, selfish behaviour of people. I am just trying to make my peace with this shitshow and enjoy what i can while being ignorant myself, and eventually i ll die.

Not gonna bring any kids just to glorify my selfish desire to live on/keep bloodline going either.

ehh, we are all also unlucky enough to be born and suffer here. Lucky are the ones who were never were.

at the same time, not giving a fuck will hurt a lot more at the start. Its not like you wake up tomorrow without a care in the world but fight everyday to keep yourself in control. But in long run it gets better and better.

ahhh never thought of it like that. i should quit my job right away and go for adventure sports full time.

"does it look like i want to change the world, old man?"