You are a self-help book, self-help gurus, and the toxic generation of toxic productivity. You are doing it wrong bro every one selling something that makes us feel like we inadequate they got to me. Hopefully, they didn't get to you 🤔

Wow amazing Summarize it for him very well

You are not alone, OP But here is a virtual hug 🫂 Life got a little hard lately There is nothing called wasting my life You need to work on all your life situations that are causing you to be miserable. Why do you feel you wasting your life ( analyzing what kind of mental distortions leading to this) I had the same kinda thinking what my therapist called balck and white thinking which made me a perfectionist and having unrealistic life standard on my self 🤔

Nightshift in itself is bad its not you. Night shift leads to an increase in cortisol level night shift is very lonely leading to more stress and how do you cope with that by eating alot, Plus security guard job is kinda sedentary unless you patrol alot. My advice to you find a new shift during the day less cortisol more social life more happiness less food. If you cant find a daytime job quickly in the mean time you can do little changes to help you . Take your vitamin d supplement please and get a lot of uninterrupted sleep try to get enough sun during ur days off have a good social support.