Well thanks everyone. Apparently I might be autistic and that's why no one will talk to me or acknowledge me.

I'm just gonna go back to self isolating again. Dealing with people is too painful and the pay off is insignificant.

It's literally like, "We haven't talked or seen each other in awhile and I was thinking about you guys. Do you have time to get together in the future?"

That's the problem I'm having. I know folks get busy, I can accept a, "No, we're pretty busy this week". I just check in later, usually a week or so later.

Whats happening is I'm just being left on read indefinitely.

I don't think expecting people to respond within a couple days of being contacted unreasonable.

I guess you're right, I'm just gonna do what I did before focus on myself and forget these assholes.

That's the problem, no one has responded to me in almost two months. I'll reach out to someone, won't hear anything and I'll wait a week until I try again.

If you cared about someone, why wouldn't you acknowledge them and respond if you already took the time to read the message?

It feels like to me you're justifying ignoring people. It's rude and inconsiderate. I don't feel I'm wrong for being upset.

I may not respond immediately to people when I get messages, but you'll always hear back from me the same day.

This was something I wanted to touch on, but the post was getting pretty long.

Although I'm not diagnosed, I think I got a few issues going on.

I grew up in an abusive household, I've been dealing with depression since middle school. It comes and it goes.

I also need stuff pointed out to me, like I need incredibly specific instructions when folks ask me to do something. It doesn't matter what it is.

Years ago I was helping a friend of mine move houses, I asked them what to do with the boxes and they told me to "toss them off the porch", thats exactly what I did. Turns out the box had a ton of China in it and was broken. I wasn't trying to be malicious, I was doing what was asked of me.

When I get groceries for my Mother, even though I know she drinks both white and chocolate milk, if she just puts "Milk" on the list, I'll only get white. She has to put both white and chocolate milk on the list. I'm not trying to inconvenience her, it's like it just automatically happens.

I guess what I'm trying to say that although I feel like a normal functioning adult I often wonder if I may be on the spectrum or something.

I haven't gone to therapy and I cannot afford to do so.