Please do not blame yourself, your brother is not only sexual-sadist, but clearly psychotic, and yet an organized killer as well since he was never caught.

However, I hate to say this, but Fiona; someday, if and when you can handle it, you may want to ask Jacek what Jeremy's victims looked like. Some of the things he said to you.... I believe he picked victims that might have resembled you. Just theeay he talked. His hatred towards you is so visceral. I'm sorry. Both he and the Devil are having a great deal of "fun" and "enjoyment" at your pain and expense. If the Leshy is better, please take any advice he or the Bannik can give you. I still stand by my previous post the Devil is going to try and pull some shit to get you to end up serving him forever, and he knows your weaknesses.

So, this is probably going to catch some hate; but I am not picking up on love, as much as I am picking up you both still having a physical attraction to each other. Maybe I am wrong, but you've been pretty honest with us about your feelings this whole time. You've never been unclear in your retelling of your history of your relationship with Jacek that you did not feel the same about him as you. And it doesn't sound to me like he is in love with you. I do not believe with the hole in his chest he has the compacity to love like he used to, much like you do not have thr compacity to love like others do, without your soul. Anyway, I am not saying it couldn't happen; however, I am not seeing right now. And I be wary of letting old feelings cloud your judgment. You have much bigger issues to deal with. You have sacrificed your life, youth, love and happiness, and soul for your land. And in a way, your mother died for the land. Your parents didn't have to stay there. They could've sold it, move to some subdivision, and your mother probably wouldn't have died in such a horrible manner; let alone foreseen her own death. You mentioned in this entry, that your parents marriage was falling apart by the time of her death, living on your land cost them their marriage too. Yes, Jacek is back. Yeah, you probably still wouldn't mind one more throw down, ok; but that doesn't matter right now. Jacek and all his bullshit is not the point. You and your land is, too much has been lost and sacrificed for it. One way or another,

Make. Tom. Pay.

Hello. I know that most of us out here in the world lack the understanding and the knowledge necessary to be of any real help to you; but is there anything we can do to help you? Maybe I am crazy, but I genuinely believe in things like banniks, leshies, etc; while knowing very little beyond basic folklore. You are dealing a lot.