In writing that post, I was very distraught because I hurt someone I loved. I believe I exposed a deep fear that combatted my logic. Logically, I knew I mattered more to him than that. However on the illogical reactive side, My reaction was out of fear of his anger response, and hanging up on me. This isn't something he regularly does. It was another shock.

(Would also note that I'm not afraid because of him. He isn't scary and never intends to be scary, but I do fear the emotion anger in general).

Tl;Dr my brain wasn't being logical and I was typing out of emotions, ignoring obvious truths such as the healthiness of our relationship

That was my plan, but he keeps saying he won't ever play it again and that suggestion made him mad

I did try :( unfortunately because the profile was deleted and readded, it started the game up like a brand new game, and there was no previous saves to load.

All I explained was my autism made me become really uncomfortable and frustrated I never said it made me do anything. I fully admitted it was my mistake to make in the post.

Also, our switches have extremely distinct features. My joycons are completely different looking and so is my dock Theyre even connected to different tvs in the same room

I would also like to point out that I never mentioned my autism to him when I called and told him. I 100% spent the entire conversation apologizing and taking full ownership, and trying to see if I could fix it. Autism was mentioned in this post for context.

When discussing it with him, I did not at all bring up my autism.

A rough summary of what I said to him was "I made a huge mistake and I am so sorry. I thought you did something to my switch because the joycons and docs were switched and -friend- showed me how to remove the profile. But I realized it was your switch when it was too late because I saw my game saves weren't on there and checked the other one. Your pokemon saves are gone. I'm so so sorry."

Then it was a follow up of "I googled it and I recovered your game saves of everything except scarlet. I'm so sorry, I'll transfer you my ghost pokemon and shinies, or I'll delete mine. Please don't hate me".

My mention of autism in the post is for context. He is aware I'm autistic

Autism is a very important piece of info because neurotypical people don't understand the physical and mental pain we feel to certain stimulants.

This is a lack of understanding of autism.

I get frustrated by inconsistencies If I always but scissors in one spot, and I go to find them and they're not there, it means someone besides me moved them and I won't be able to complete a task in full.

If my boyfriend watches a zombie show on my Netflix profile instead of his profile (because we share a sub) then that means my algorithm is going to change into something I don't like, and that will stress me out.

I think you're implying that I don't like sharing, which is also a major autism trait, and is correct. But it isn't a matter of selfishness. I would rather purchase someone the exact same thing I own than have them use/eat/have my thing/food/item. Selfishness would be "you don't get this at all". Autism is "I want you to also enjoy this so here it is, for you, but this is mine because It needs to be the way I structure it, okay? But you do whatever you want to yours."

I never once said that nothing was on me, infact in my post I definitely put full blame on myself and angry at what I did.

You continue to ask how I didn't think, and I sat there for the entire day asking myself that same question. But you're going about this as if I had malice, which is inaccurate information that makes me feel very uncomfortable.

I would never do anything to hurt him, and if I did remove his account from my switch, I know that action would not hurt him. I know him. I even asked him.

But ultimately, he has calmed down now. He knows I had no Mal intent and was glad I recovered all other game data but is disappointed in our game loss. He is still adamant about not playing anymore, which is what makes me sad, as I said in my post was a major bonding experience for us. We both grew up loving the games.

So, what I said is still correct though. I still made a mistake And the consequence was accidental. By telling me I did not make a mistake, I made a choice, you're implying that a mistake is not an action, but it is. You can't make a mistake without a choice.

An accident is not a choice I didn't mean to delete his data off his switch because I was unaware it was his.

I'm not denying the choice

I'm sad because I made a bad choice: a mistake And the consequence was accidentally deleting his game data, which made him angry.

He would not be angry if i genuinely deleted his profile off of my own switch, because that would not matter to him. He was angry that he lost progress on a game we played online together and bonded over, which ultimately hurts me too because I don't want to progress without him, as I only had fun with him.

I attempted to do this but unfortunately it didn't work because the game opened as if it was brand new. 😕

A mistake is an action, decision or judgment that produces an unwanted or unintentional result. Be definition, I made a mistake.

It was also a mistake And the overall consequence was an accident

I bought the switch for him and only made a profile on it to play one game, then it was his. I then bought one for myself FOR HIM for the sake of playing games together. I was upset because a change happened that I wasn't prepared for. I don't process change well. That's why I'm saying you do not understand autism. I never said what I didn't wasn't shitty But I never ever ever did it with malice and if I at all knew he had his game data on that switch, I would not have done it. I didn't even know how. My friend showed me. You think this is some twisted "I'll show him hahaha" but it was literally me reacting in discomfort wondering why my system wasn't the way I left it and looking for a quick fix to the painful itching feeling I got in my body over it.

I don't think you understand autism

I had a profile on his switch because it was the first one I bought, mainly because he was interested in it for him to play and was 2 years old before I could finally justify buying another so we could play games together. He never got around to removing my old profile.

Deleting my comment because it's useless to stress on a problem that cannot be fixed. I already feel like garbage, and have tried absolutely everything possible to fix the mistake I made. I cannot do anything except wait for him to cool off and give him space till he gets home

I had never intended to do any harm We agreed upon getting the switches that mine would be specially for my games. Thus why I assumed he had done that without asking

Every time I keep apologizing or trying to make up for it (aka: saying I'll trade and breed pokemon for him, or even that I'll grind on his account for him till he gets back, or even completely restart mine too) he gets madder and tells me to "fing drop it"